I raised my fiancé’s 10 children after he left us; 30 years later, his lawyer showed up at my door and said, “He asked me to give you this envelope today.”

disappeared.”

I hesitated before opening the first one.

The handwriting was unmistakably his.

Year One

Today the chemotherapy began.

I almost turned the truck around five different times.

Every mile away from the children felt like another knife.

I told myself they would hate me now instead of mourning me later.

Maybe hate is easier to survive than grief.

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